Myself

Wen uploaded different kinda big eyes doll to introduce herself.
I'm a small eye girl with short hair and weird taste. I love monster and extraordinary dolls.
I'm optimistic yet pessimistic. I enjoy shopping but i'm a bit stingy to my own self.
I love food. especially hot and spicy, Tomyam.
I love ice cream and chocolate.
I think I'm gifted. but i'm sometimes feeling inferior, i hate myself for being short and fat.
I'm ambitious and responsible.
I have not much friends, especially those close and intimate. I can count it with my fingers...
I have a boyfriend who love DOTA more.
I'm sleepy...

Cinnamon Roll in Process

Derek Chong and Bangau Chong are on their position of flour mixing. Today's project--Cinnamon roll. Gagak Toh, myself responsibles to take good shot for these 2 big chef.

The ingredients are really not a big deal as we will modify a bit.

Getting serious...we have Derek Chong, 2nd chef on board. Stir and Stir.

I'm so excited to see...Actually i did help in mixing flour and stirring. Then put in frigde then under sun to let the dough expand. I need to neglect my photography job la, for sure! ^^

Bangau Wen insisted to put more cinnamon powder. As written in the recipe, only 3 spoonfuls of cinnamon powder plus some fine sugar is to be spread evenly on the dough. We pour half bottle, which equivalent to 10 spoonfuls, for tastier bite. ahahha~

Although it might not be as professional look as what we see in bakery. These are quite heart consolating, not bad la, with some mix fruits as topping.

Ya right...I have to help cleaning up this messy workplace.

P/S: unfortunately photo of sushi making and orange cheesecake making was done before i own a camera. Bangau, i repeat, when is our next task?

I love Funny Ad

It must be so soft...


This is aweful...funny!

Art Work

漩涡式的图案像极了我的心情。
平静的蓝色泛起的浪，旋旋转转……
刹那间
冲击成怒气冲冲的红色！
红浪花啊，
它四处蔓延，贪婪地荼毒那软弱
却蠢蠢欲动的心。

DOTA, the mood spoiler

My best friend, wen, the bangau, shares me a website where i can listen to all types of different music...to suit or to create a special mood.
I love that. Thanx wen.
But my room is always in a war mode, "tic tic tac tac" mouse clicking sound + keyboard sound.
I try to play Jazz music as you recommended but sorry i don't have a hazelnut 3 in 1 coffee. I prefer tea, green tea in fact. I dim the light, oh my God, it's great...until the stupid piow starts his war game--DOTA.
I'm gonna announced here, I will not allow DOTA in my new room. Take my laptop out to the living room for the unpeaceful war, stay away my lovely bedroom.I don't want any b0mb and explosion.
What a disruption of peace and love, harmony and calm!
I love peace. I love Wen, my soulmate. All the best to my pretty woman.

My first ECG

Having dull chest pain on and off these two months has prompted me to have a ECG done at CCU hospital where i know the staff.
Today, the dull crushing left chest pain is again bothering me for 2 hours, non stop. I decided to pay a visit to the CCU. Friday i have a drawing class and i departed from home 30mins earlier.
Laying down on the bed after explaining to Intan, the staff nurse in CCU, she straight away prepares everything needed for the assessment.
"U have to take off your bras..."
Thought of wearing a bikini's type bra will save me from being taken off the bras, i'm wrong. :(
A lot of clips and some suction like things put on my chest and legs, 12 leads. Feel funny.
This is my very first ECG, showed sinus rythm normal ECG. With a extremely nice FUll blood test i got last few weeks plus this normal ECG, i can conclude that i'm almost too healthy physically. (I'm a bit sick, mentally.)

Did any professional spot some abnormalities?

I think my heart pain is merely because of STRESS these days.

• Being a newly posted Fully Registered Pharmacist in the same hospital where i did my training, is stressful.

• Having pegawai who calls me whenever my boyfriend (Piow) disappeared from workplace, urggh...apparently, I hate this.

• Having pegawai that looks at me in the way as i killed her parents and owe her 1million.

• Not having good conflict management. Wanted to voice up my disagreement and feeling but ended up faking it up by smile and "hmm..oklah" Failed to be honest to myself.

• Angry when seeing people kissing other ass in front but stabbing at the back...still get doted upon. (NONE OF MY BUSINESS...OMG...)
  

• Having travel planS which worked all by my own, stressful and tired. No response when i asked opinion (but with "dic dic tac tac" keyboard sound), i ended up with foul languages. U asked me why?
  How i miss travel plans arranged and prepared by kuang kian...and im just easily follow his plan without worries.
  

• Having tans of clothes to be ironed.

All these contribute to my chest pain.
I'm really a complain monster. A freak of complaining. NO way, life is still going on with the mouth keep on "blah~~blah~~blah".

My First Day as Pegawai

18 August 2008, finally i have made it through my PRP life, which is a blend of sweet, sour, bitter and sometimes hot (anger~~) Like what i have mentioned in my previous blog, i hope i will not get bullied anymore. C'mon, i'm also a pegawai now, not "provisional" anymore.

Today is not a perfect one.
I failed to get a place in clinical but in fact i get outpatient. (Okla, i can accept...) The worst part is my KPF is not listening to our preference... he is really a pain, he should learn communicating skill.

Secondly, i can't really stand my friends who start to satire me with "neh, ask pegawai la..." Maybe i'm not used to new position and i'm too care about how ppl look at me...:( I try i try to adjust...
I promise myself to strengthen my clinical knowledge and pharmacokinetics during my service in OutPAtient which has less burden...slowly build up my ability to assist in ward, pursue my dream!

By the time when ward pharmacy need pharmacist, i can confidently volunteer! :)
U might think i'm overconfident/ big headed...but i really have the heart and ability to do it well.

MY Quote for Today:
"Definite CHief Aim is having a clear specific image of what you want to achieve where you have a clear goal and a precise plan to achieve it !! --napoleonhill's success Vitamin.

陈年旅事， 普吉岛篇

2006年2月15日左右，我们一同去了普吉岛。大学放假啦~

美丽的海滩，不赖的摄影技巧，哗咔咔~

有人不见了，陈抡标躲在房里，他说，好累啊，又晒伤了……

有时疯狂的游客，的确为普吉岛带来欢乐。

我们的旅馆，服务周到，态度殷勤，友善大方。一晚才不过一人十元马币。

我们的代步工具，电车。后座乘客不必戴铁帽。连添油也别树一帜。逍遥哦~

笨猪跳，一名日本仔一边跳一边乱叫，我想我毕生不可能克服的心理障碍。

是水上活动的时候了。Water skiing,是溜水吗？我怕水，所以我今天负责拍照。

另一角有风光明媚的画面，一群色狼躲在树后流口水。

Beautiful stunt, 高级危险水上花式。一定不是团友做得啦！

这个太好吃了，香肠，有普通、辛辣、大蒜口味等。还有香脆的昆虫，是首选哦！

回咯，离开我们的旅馆，乘坐国产Tut Tut。

巴士上，晒伤的潮明好累。顽皮的阿标好残忍。咯咯，我在一旁笑个不停。It's so CRUEL~

陈年旅事， 曼谷篇

25August 2006 -31 August 2006

We went Bangkok from Butterworth Penang, by train which took more than 10 hours ride. Fun and exciting train journey, air-contitioned and clean. It costs about RM110/way.
Typicall FLOAT MARKET with commerciallized sampan ride, RM20/ride, which take 30mins.


Grand Palace...See, i'm trying to be closer to stupid piow. Yes, i'm his secret admirer that time. :P Now the yellow T-shirt become my badminton jersey. wahahah.
One corner in Grand Palace with chiew ying and Pek Lian. The buildings are grand by its gold painting.
It's a nice shot! Again i'm trying to touch u, Tan Loon Piow, stupidest dumb dumb man.

My sister, Chun wei is too tall for me.


Bangkok is a nice place, but i prefer Phuket. Yeah~

我的惊喜

今天上完素描班，标就来载我回家，出奇得准时，好乖……因为平时在网咖流连忘返，迟迟不来接我下课 ，心里有点欣慰。
“标啊，其实我很想和你去喝喝茶谈谈天…… ”
“标啊，其实你真的很好，只是有点迟钝，人家已经暗示明示你很多次我喜欢那个钱包，为什么你宁愿去打机，也不去买礼物给我？明天我自己买啦~ ”
“呜～不要这样讲我啦～ ”标走下楼。
良久，他指示要我走近电脑荧幕，一份包得有点丑陋的礼物摆在眼前……好兴奋啊~~~~

“This is for u~~ ” 他说。哇赛！我第二份惊喜礼物，我用了好几个月唠叨有功~~
“给你开工用的，升职咧！以前给你开工‘利是’，现在给你升职 钱包~ ”
我每个星期都留恋百盛百货公司都是为了这系列的钱包，纵使我喜欢那小的，但标说太小不实际，只好买这个较大的，我也超喜欢的~谢谢！ 母阿斯~~

My reaction on UiTM students' demonstration

Selangor MB Tan Sri Khalid Ibrahim proposed that 10% of enrolment to Uitm should be opened to non bumiputera, with the intention of promoting positive competition and integration of races.

Thousands of Uitm students stood up to protest Tan Sri's proposal. These are reasons i read from others' blogs: sacrifice bumi's privilege, threaten the position of bumi in nation, 10% of bumi population will have no chance to study, non bumis are rich to send children oversea, it's an politics trick, don't query Bumi's absolute privilige, chinese has UTar,keep away from Uitm....etc. Even worse, some did mention if it is to be opened to other races, Bumi will "mengemis" and see others "kaya raya"...OMG. Heart ache when i read someone wrote, why MB bother to open 10% to non Bumis while he can actually think how to shut down Chinese and Tamil primary in Malaysia? What a serious racism. sigh......but still, there are some modernised Malays friends who support the suggestion with mature point of view. Bravo, brother!


As a malaysian chinese, sometimes i feel frustrated for all these issue. I have a lot of malay buddies, i love them even though they have more priviledges than me. My achievement here is what i strive for long. Unfair?Oh yeah, yes it is, but it is being stated in Perlembagaan regarding Hak Bumiputera.

A suggestion to open 10% has already created a hue and cry, i doubt the maturity of these students, frankly. To think other races as a threat is really pathetic. I feel pitiful for that. I'm no longer competing for University Quota but i always ask my brother to study hard. I have to say, "if u get a bad result, u definitely can't get what u want; if u get the best result, it can't guarantee a place in local u, but at least u have chance and offer from other countries". So sad. I think malaysian chinese have adapted and used to this situation, at least i am. It'a a matter of comparing an apple and an watermelon, non bumis vs Bumi, not debatable as we are not born as a bumiputera.

I'm not a fighter and i hate politics. But i think it's better to use time wisely, rather than having a parade/ demo...showing how childish those people. If i'm given choices, i don't really want to go Uitm and being surrounded by those anti-chinese and anti-India who they think Malaysia is all theirs.

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I choose to do my best and accept who am i and where i live. Life is never fair, it's all depend on how u judge and live.

All of above is my humble view of today's nation and current issues, sorry for any offences.

Working emotion

Today is my last day in HTAA as a PRP (Provisional Registered Pharmacist). I'm going to become a "real" pharmacist, so called, FRP (Full registered Pharmacist) on Monday 18/8/08.

The best things of being FRP:
1. No need to write explanation letter for petty mistake
2. No need to report even if u wanna go toilet (i always report, once i fail as i didn't meet her, she will "interrogate" like an inspective, gosh...)
3. No need to purposely submissive nor subservient to the arrogant superior
4. No need to listen to sarcastic critisms which do harm more than good, just to put u down
5. No need to see her racist face and attitude
6. No longer get bullied because i can't kiss her ass well. (no way fawning on her...)

I feel pretty down when my works are not appreciated.
I learned to become humble and respectful to everyone, as i know it's bad to be treated the otherwise.
I do know that, i have tried my best, and i'm thankful to have a lot of supportive superior who are willing to share knowledge and teach whenever possible. :) Lucky!~

However, mom said "1 kind of rice feed different kind of people", it's right.

The best Quote of Mine:
"Our greatest glory is not in never failing but in rising everytime we fall !"
Keep fighting, kit yeng~~

Celebrating Piow's Birthday

Dinner at Le Parisien Restaurant, the French restaurant, 7pm, 13 August 2008
Piow and I, the stupidest couple posing to snap a nice photo under dim light..
We didn't order any soup for starter, instead we order escargot with pancake and garlic bread. It's nice...it's my first encounter with french snails...wahahaha....


Our salmon salad...yummy! look nice and taste gorgeously delicious!!

Our main course, I ordered an "Escalope chicken" for him. Very chessy and rich, served with noodle. I love the taste...

My part, i ordered an black pepper chicken as i think they make the best black pepper sauce ever in town. But the meat is kind of hard, it's chicken breast鸡胸 ...tired chewing~but still i enjoy the sauce. u can taste the herbs, the blends of aromas are not merely black pepper!

I have tried the Gordon Bleu a week before, i think i prefer Gordon Bleu chicken, with mashed potatoes as topping...

Our dessert. Custard with melted caramel on top of it. Taste like egg Tart, i personnally like it but piow think it's too sweet..I plan to order some crepe, i love crepe with ice cream, banana/ apple...but too full~

The birthday boy looked so innocent and happy at the candle while the restaurant was playing "Happy birthday". Blowing the candle with a wish, this 25 year-old man (still looks so young, jealous, duhh~) happily finished it with his love one :P



Finally, I paid the bill RM60.20. I think it's worth. :)

我们的聚餐

还有一个星期我就在HTAA一年期满，不知到会被调派到哪一个医院或诊所去，有点忐忑。大部分的PRP都如愿以偿，得到自己想要的州属；也有人被逼留在彭亨……
今天八月九号星期六在ERIK他们家做了个小聚会（Soon-to-be FRP Gathering,哈）。大家叫了外边的食物，一起聚餐。真感谢大家的用心，至少我觉得这次聚会很愉快。
Christine 为男友Jude 提早庆祝生日，八月十三日，凑巧和标同一天生日，她静悄悄的准备了个芝士蛋糕，很有心思。他们其实蛮像，都爱芝士都爱打机。
我想我会想念大家，可以一起工作是种缘分，其中的酸甜苦辣起起落落是生活的点缀。即使大家分开后，我不会忘记……糊涂固执的阿发，爱唱歌幽默又醒目的伟廉，瘦瘦聪明又会拿假的倩雯，老实勤劳的志民，可爱爱笑又很高大的Christine，神神经经的Angeline……
所以我说，祝大家前程似锦，友谊永固。

热泪满眶

如果你已经N年没有流眼泪，泪腺诸塞，建议你观看Oprah's Big Give慈善节目。NTV7晚上八点半至九点半，星期二，让你热泪满眶。"I think it is a good opportunity to inspire others to engage in philanthropy， it will actually encourage people to move away from a strict career focus and spend more time on charities or caring for others,"said Stephen Paletta, the final contestant.

Oprah Winfrey是我敬佩的一名女名嘴，她的网页不止图文并茂，也有很多资讯哦~
http://www.oprah.com/index
在Oprah的网页， 我发现了一个有趣的 “冥想”指南，Meditation : An Interactive Guide.
很放松，meditation 其实真的很好，尤其对我这种暴躁的人。

今天看了Oprah show 后，又看《溏心风暴》，Alfred 和常在心因为第三者（臭蒙嘉慧！）吵架，流了一百毫升的眼泪。好舒畅……

今天与你共勉……
“Your life is a journey of learning to love yourself first and then extending that love to others in every encounter. ” -Oprah

Langkawi

这是，langkawi的其中一角。

Le Parisien

Le Parisien 是雯带我去的关丹唯一一间法国餐厅，地点真得有点偏僻，不过价钱真得很公道，而且很消闲，服务也很好。

今晚，素描班后我们二人世界的去“喝茶 ”。我们点了两道开胃汤和两道甜品。雯点了asparagus soup ；而我就因为伤风，点了onion soup。

甜品呢，我们就叫了个crepe Normande(就像个苹果派加雪糕) 和 profitevalle(<--- 不懂写对吗~嘻,是个自家做得泡芙puff夹雪糕，淋上香浓的巧克力浆） 做得真得很用心很美很好吃，但手机的摄影功能很烂，拍得不美，可惜。




下次要再光顾，试试雯说的Escalope chicken,duck fillet 和其他的甜品。唔，标生日时为他准备准备······ Crepe Normande 的食谱