New journey soon to start

It has been months i live without a proper or clear vision. Living in pathetic i will say. After Piow moves back to Hospital Pekan's quarter staying with his friends, i would really plan my life again. I have lost a lot meaningful moment and precious time begging a man to look at me and pamper me, instead of playing his online game. (Dear friends, im not a nagging nanny alwiz keen on complaining, but u duno my piow....)
So silly, i should have spent time fruitfully. SO many plans flying in my head now. Im sad yet excited. Sad for i will be lonely again(not really la); Excited for i could study more, play more and enjoy more. Here are my plans:
1. To read a topic of my interest (pharmacy) everyday which is always my passion.
2. To learn my Japanese language all over again
3. To have more outing, meet more friends :) Wen, dun blame me for isolating la...im jz lazy :P
4. To meditate more (With Dota sound here, i can't meditate...)
5. To exercise more..i gain bumper around my waist :P

So pathetic i feel for myself all these while as i will alwiz think...
1. where to go TOGETHER later ah?
2. what to eat TOGETHER later ah?
3. How to make him spend time with me ah?
when ppl has never ever shifted his eyes away from computer.

I should have thought...
1. How to make MYSELF happier ar?
2. When to meet MY friends ar?

Today 38, World Women Day.
I feel strongly for a LIFE RESTRUCTURE + FINANCIAL RECONSTRUCT.
Don;t worry, he won't die of bored without u.